Restart the Engine
by Paul McCarrick
Discard any computer wires that kept you inside
during your teens or twenties, even the current timeline,
cut any cords that tied you down to tendencies of talking
about polygons, and other distractions from the outside.
Go, rise from the seat that sank to new depths and leave.
Climb the tallest ladder in your garage and batter your phone.
You simply just need to let go. Watch as its face cracks, in a second
tens and hundreds of lasting spider webs, never to be swept away.
Get a thesaurus. Become ferocious, vivacious, contemplative,
anything else deemed desirable, or indeed necessary for seeming
interesting, important, inviting, or, rather, human. Read books
people argue over and decide who is right in your own allotted time.
Have a change of faith. Or a crisis of consciousness; both are acceptable.
Promise to go to church services, not including funerals.
Go praise the Lord in every house the Lord claims, synagogues,
mosques, Spring morning valleys watching a swallow’s manoeuvre.
Become asthmatic if not already so and relearn how to breathe
and calm down. Be as happy as a winded baby, as still as the horse
chestnut come July evenings, as confident as a mother watching
the lottery, the Grand National, or their child’s bad decision.
Listen to the voices around you, take in the way they rise and bow,
tilt and lift over vowel and breathe. Take it in, all that is new and good,
all that isn’t important for the next ten seconds. But you’re still at the top
of the ladder staring at the screen. Just one more minute, you say.
And then another after that.